Cy's Mind

Beginning, Middle, Ending. Aristotle the Greek philosopher and all around grouch stated in his writings titled "Poetics" that all stories must have a starting point, a body of substance, and a completion. He determined this as the natural form that people expect. While the exact facts I state here may be slightly askew, non-the-less mainly Aristotle is credited for laying out the basic structure of the mechanics of a story. I think he just happened to be the first to codify what many knew for a very long time.

Even today in elementary school this form is taught, and nurtured throughout high school and college. Almost all movies have this form, as do most all books. So big deal. What does it have to do with life in general?

I'm glad you asked. Since the form of beginning, middle, and ending is built into us, I recently questioned "why"? After much thought I have a theory (as expected). This three part form provides a ride for the emotions that brings healing in the ending. Shock, and intrigue me first causing a emotional wound, then add detail and salt to the wound, and finally tie up the loose ends to cause complete healing to come forth.

Completion. It's the completoin we humans seek. We seek this in each day, and when we don't have completion for each day we feel empty. That emptiness grows unless some completion is obtained. If not we try to feed the hungry beast of loose ends. The animal with it's foot caught in the trap will chew off the foot to get away. We will self destruct. We lack fulfillment. It's funny the things that actually provide fulfillment.

End of Days. So my days without Judith here have been never ending. I've restarted my daily routine to mark the beginning, middle, and end of my days. Morning: up and dressed, off to Java Mama coffee shop for a cup and a newspaper. I'm working from home these days, so it is my new commute. This signals my start of day. The middle is still the same: work. That part has always been easy. Now the most difficult part has always been ending the day. Evening walk, maybe blog, shower, brush teeth, watch a tiny bit of tv, hop into bed with my night guard inserted into my mouth (I grind teeth at night; maybe it will stop someday), read for a little bit , and then lights off. This has worked rather well the last few nights. Let's see if I can keep it up.

Weight: This morning 284 pounds. Last summer at this time I was Dragon Boating and was in great shape and only weighed about 250 pounds. I walked a 5K (3.1 miles) tonight. My feet hurt a little, but we will see tomorrow how they are doing. Losing weight must be a daily priority. All I can do is keep trying, and never stop.